…My little sisters
…My boyfriend
…My friends
…So I know my place in life - my own identity and belonging
…So I can learn what I’m really longing for instead of appease my inner hunger all the time with food
…So I can be happy and learn to accept myself
…So I can finally have control of my life
…So I can find better ways of dealing with things (like stress, mood swings or criticism)
…So I’m able to have normal relationships without continual problems
…So I can get married some day
…So I can have a family, be a good mum
…So I can finally manage a whole apprenticeship
…So I can show my family that I’m capable of managing my life
…So I watch these scars fade and not adding more
…So I can save money and don’t waste it unnecessary (for example for too much food)
…So I can release my disease and learn to live without the existence of this diagnosis which gave me security in times I don’t know who I am and where I belong
…So I’m able to smile for real.
…So I can beat my depression
…So I can have more energy to do things throughout the day
…So I won’t have so many days when I’m too depressed to leave the house
…So I can trash all my razors and don’t buy new ones
…So I no longer lose people I love
…SoI’m free from the monsters of self-hate and depression
…So I can have a normal and healthy relationship with food and don’t use it anymore for when I’m sad, disappointed, angry, tired, listless, happy etc.
…So I can get the hang of my feelings
…So I learn having a good self-confidence and self-esteem
…So I become everything that people told me I could never be
…So I can finally really live and every single day isn’t a torture anymore
…So I can make everyone proud of me
…So I can say “I managed it. I defeated my demons.”
…So I can to everyone who has hurt me, how strong I can be
…So no one will have to worry about me again
…So I can join groups and not be paranoid that everyone is judging me
…So I don’t have to lie to my family, my boyfriend
…So I won’t have to pretend anymore
…So I don’t have to go to therapy anymore
…So I can make something out of my life
…So changes in my daily routine won’t scare me anymore
…So waking up in the morning won’t be such a struggle
…So I can believe and accept compliments
…So I won’t focus on the negative
…So I can accept all my flaws
…So I can look back in a few years and be proud of myself for fighting
…So I can look at life with a smile and more positively
…So I can feel like a good person
…So I feel like I’m worth it
…So I feel important
…So I can tell everyone what I went through, and how I got better
…So I can forgive myself and properly move on
…So I can motivate and convince others to recove
…So I can tell my story and help others